Welcome home... again.

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After spending the greater part of my young adulthood making dumb mistakes and not going anywhere, I thought to myself "If I haven't at least learned something from this, then the whole last five years have been a complete write off."

(Of course, it never even crossed my mind to take active steps to change my circumstances. And it's such a mark of the indie/hipster kid that we look back with self pity and resign ourselves to our under-achieving ways, where we can mull over the reasons for our mediocrity, rather than getting up off of our Belle & Sebastian-listening behinds and doing something about it.

For example, after wordily proclaiming to anyone who would listen that 2010 was going to be the greatest fricken year of my life, and that everything was going to turn around and my life was going to be filled with extraordinary people, fulfilled potential and a general air of brilliance. After all of those positive thoughts and words came gushing out of me like I was some lame character out of 7th Heaven or something, the closest I came to anything resembling an actual plan to change my life was to start a new blog. Not only that, but a blog which would serve to reflect on the crapness of my world and justify (to myself at least) my lameness by explaining how it was all serving to make me into a less whiney, lame human being, whereby cleverly avoiding any actual action.)

So.. this is my new blog. Here you can read about the mess I make of my life and experience that feeling of superiority you get when you see someone really well-dressed fall over in public.

xoxo.

Mel.

P.S. Things can only go uphill from here.

© MLHL, Wednesday, February 24, 2010

*****

What you just read was the launch post of MLHL. So.. yes this is a re-post. It's also a symbol, a statement, and a vow.

Here and now I'd like to apologise for letting this blog become anything less than what I intended it to be when I launched back in February.

Don't be mistaken, I'm not apologising to you, my lovely readers (whom I love with all of my heart). I'm apologising to myself. Becuase this blog was never just a blog. It was a resolution. It was a promise that, while I certainly wouldn't stop making stupid mistakes and generally allowing life to toss me about however it liked, I would certainly become better for it.

I'd learn.

And now we're half way through 2010, the year that was supposed to be "the greatest fricken year of my life" and I feel as though I've made all the mistakes that I'm expected to make in young adulthood, but I haven't learned any of the lessons. My resolve, and this blog, have slowly disintegrated and fallen to pieces.

This post is a new start, a fresh beginning, and a vow to you, to myself, and most of all to the girl I was six months ago (and what a half-year it's been. But that's a story for another post). Now I will start learning. It's all onward and upward from here.

So, if you don't mind, I'd like to start afresh...

Hi. I'm Mel and I'm 24 years old. I'm a social klutz, an avid dreamer, an emotional wreck, a brilliant listener, a fashion victim, a thinker, a do-er (but rarely simultaneously), a blogger, a mess, and... a learner.

It's nice to meet you.